Crazy

I’m crazy now.  

I said that at 20 after someone had been gaslighting me, and drove me toward more than one breakdown.

It was all a huge misunderstanding. But the damage was done.  I healed, blocking the whole incident out and thinking myself normal for most of my life.

I’ve had troubles and worked through them, but every time I was about to break, some inner part of my mind rescued me.  It refuses to let me fail.

Now I am watching people around me break. The pressure’s too much. They’ve tried to kill themselves because the isolation is too much.  They’ve snapped and are hearing voices.  They’ve lost their minds.

So did I.  And my mind came back.

I didn’t trust it anymore so I forgot it happened.  Do anything you have to, but heal.

By the end of this year we will be back together.  And I will be the crazy one.  I’m used to it. 😊